In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Back to School.”
46 years, a college degree and 26 years of nursing later … what do I want to be when I grow up? When I decided to retire from nursing, I felt like a quitter. Someone told me that after you have been doing something for 26 years, you can’t really consider it quitting. Can you? But (once again) after taking a 4 month break, with no luck in the job search outside of healthcare, I am back in a nursing job. And I am restless. Unsettled. Worried. Don’t get me wrong … nursing is not all bad. It is stable. The pay is usually good. There are many different positions / fields you can work. There is nothing like the feeling of knowing at the end of the day, you have made a difference in the life of someone. I am just ready to move on.
My husband told me to take my time and find a job that I love, preferably closer to home. But, living in a small town limits the opportunities greatly. I have considered my options for expanding on my degree with courses in health information or office management. By looking into certificate type courses, I could learn the skills faster and for a smaller amount of money than a new college degree. But, in truth, these would not be jobs that I loved.
If I had a complete do-over, I would have pursued a career in a creative field. I may have chosen to stay on track for my teaching degree instead of switching mid-way to nursing, then becoming an art teacher or an elementary teacher. I would have kept my art / craft separate so that it would remain a hobby that I love instead of a career that I had to maintain to live.
If I were given an opportunity to take a break from my life as it is now … where money was not an issue … where time constraints were not a factor … knowing my personality as a shy, somewhat anxious, homebody … to go back to school to master a subject, well … I just can’t pick one.
I do know that I don’t want to be stuck in an office. I don’t want to have people’s lives depend on me. I don’t want to have to wake up at 4am. I don’t want to work weekends and nights and holidays.
I love to read. So, I would love to be an author. To do that, I would definitely have to brush up on my English, creative writing and grammar. In that same aspect, I love to ramble on in the blog. So, I wish I knew computer programming hacks to make it more creative and exciting.
There is nothing more satisfying than creating something. I would want to learn how to change trash to treasures better … not just dabbling as I do now. I would want to learn carpentry so that I can also create things from scratch. I would like to have a huge greenhouse and learn from an expert on growing beautiful flowers & combine the woodworking (and other building trades) to create beautiful outdoor yard art & landscapes.
But, back to reality. Back to the fact that money is an issue & time is not limitless. No matter what I want to do, I know what I need to do and that is what I will continue to do … at least for now.