Starting 190 Last 173.5 Current 175
Due to my inability to control my eating & break through the 170’s, I am returning to hcg. I have found a more affordable option and will share more as the weeks go on.
“Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.” Mark Twain
The hcg diet plan, as outlined in Dr Simeon’s Pounds and Inches, encourages walking each day to promote increased weight loss. However, due to the very low calorie diet, high intensity exercise is discouraged. Somewhere, (but I could not find it the second time around) I read that if you already exercised that it was ok to continue doing what you did before the hcg. So, I am planning to continue on with my previous exercise goal … the couch to 5K running plan that I found here . I am working through the leg cramps and I am finally seeing some progress … thanks to an old high school friend who gave me some direction! (I will post more on that later … because I feel like if I have leg cramps and could not fix it alone, then someone else may benefit from that information) My additional goal was to add weights back into my workout on my off run days. And, I did that! But, while I am on the hcg, I am going to switch to yoga for my strengthening, stretching and toning.
My inspirational quote for a weight loss post must seem out of context. However, it is very appropriate for me! I have always had issues with becoming easily angered. And, I can hold a grudge for as long as the best of them! A couple weeks ago, I came across this site when I was looking for a Christian marriage retreat. I was actually looking for something to revive my marriage and found a way to forgive and move past some of the things I had been holding inside … things that should have long ago been forgiven … not just in my marriage but even from my childhood! (I feel I must add this since their post is titled “Forgiving infidelity … to my knowledge, my husband has not been unfaithful) I went through each and every step just as they outlined them for each person that I felt I had never forgiven and needed to for emotional healing. I prepared for the fact that I would have to repeat over and over, “Father, I thank you that I forgave …” But, I didn’t. It was like going through the motions and really meaning it in my heart and soul released it from ever existing! Now, when ever I feel angered, I try to stop and make time to go through each step. However, instead of writing it out, I mentally prepare the letter. It is as though I can stop this build up of anger and resentment in it’s tracks by going through this process.
This past week, I did not do so well with this. I let a series of events get to me. As my anger rose, so did my appetite! Instead of doing what I had learned was working for me to control that which I cannot normally control, I resorted back to my previous behavior.
If emotional eating wasn’t enough, I also had to deal with hormonal eating! With the PCOS, I only had periods about twice a year. With the absence of menstruation, this is still not hard to detect … itchy skin, tender breasts, uncontrollable tears, insomnia, food cravings, bloating and weight gain!! I was up to 177 late last week!
My! Week! Stunk!
So, today, I am making a plan to forgive, get focused and move forward!